After all this time stressing out, I'm FINALLY learning how take control of my life!

Let me just start out by saying this. In recent months I have been watching videos on the internet and have been recording them on my cameraphone (don't worry, I won't repost 'em). I watch them at work whever things get slow, as it were. Anyway my reason for bringing this up was because I've been watching episodes of The Boondocks as of late. My favourite ones that I watch to this very day is "Attack of the Killer Kung Fu B____". It's my favourite because it had so many paralells to certain movies I've seen with the past quarter-century; A thin line between Love and Hate, Fatal Attraction just to name some. And there are also paralells to some women I've known who were victims of abuse and to this day a few do not know how to properly deal with it. This particular episode has set several patterns in a 22 minute time span. A lot of lessons learned from this episode which in a 2-part series on youtube.com. To those who've yet to see that episode, I'll break it down for you. Mr. Freeman, trying to relive his younger days as a ladies man has tried his hand at online dating. After a few failed attempts, he finally comes across someone who actually is the person in the picture, to say the least. So after getting to know Luna-that was her name-better, she later revealed some dark secrets about herself. I won't give the entire episode away, just the moral of the story. But when more of Luna's checkered past had come to light. Mr. Freeman made up some story to get rid of her which worked briefly for a time, but when Luna's friend found out about a 'birthday' of a Caribbean dictator which wsan't until later on in the year, Luna snapped and eventually kidnapped and tortured Mr. Freeman and his two grandsons and even Tom DuBois who was asked by Huey to check on the family periodically. But when things had gone too far, and Luna still being haunted by the abuse she's suffered in the past, broke down and explained how such a life pattern was developed in her life at a young age. Being a product of such an environment, it was second nature to her and it began to control her well-being as she got older. Luna had a confidant named Nicole, who, in my opinion, should've severed all ties with her when she was advised by Mr. Freeman who's an older wiser man who has been there and done that. He advised her to "Take control of your life, take responsibilty...and let go of the past..." That was the antitdote she needed to start her life over again. A new life, and a new beginning, so to speak. The mistake Luna made was when Nicole called again and Luna revealed that she'd told her life story to him and had decided to take control and let go. She should've ended the conversation there (you may know where I'm taking this). After Nicole expressed her opinions of that situation, you could see Luna's depression sink even deeper, and she committed suicide by blowing herself up. How sad that someone so beautiful and talented could end up like that. The patterns being set were being in bad surroundings the root back her childhood, abusive relationships, mistrust, very bad judgment, always confiding in a well-natured, but mostly ignorant girlfriend. And there are some of us who were/are in situations such as the ones mentioned here. And there are some who were fortunate enough to never be in that predicament (I thank God for you whoever you are). Now I wasn't in a situation that was as bad the one mentioned in that particular episode of The Boondocks, but I've been in very bad positions that could've scarred me for life. I think about that episode-depressing it was most of the time-it was educational and somewhat inspirational. As a learning example as to what your lot in life can and will become if you allow it to be as such. And those words from Robert Freeman echo to me even in real life as they should have echoed to Ms. Luna: "Take control of your life....take responsibility...and let go of the past..." Easier said than done, but it can be done! Question is: What will [we] do about it? And if we have yet to do something about it, as my father says to me on occasion: "If not now, when?"

Something to think about. I like it better when I'm in control of me anyway!
Wouldn't have it any other way, baby. Not now, NOT EVER!